I
There is a wind of autumn, cold and fierce,
when the sun burns out in the West.
It is raging - the wind! —
and you ask: what is it?
- Snowstorm is coming, and you’ll lose your peace.
In the near future
You foresee new suffering and torture,
You’ll have you mouth numb and frozen pulse,
and only - silently and secretly - your eyes
will pray - and curse...
Snowstorm is coming, overwhelming, cold.
Don't ask; why are you so furious, Fate?
But do not blame yourself for the frozen heart,
I lost all words - snowstorm is in the world.
So, do not you look into the lifeless height,
So, do not you peer into the abyss bled to death -
You, fading out, still with living breath,
still vibrant —
take a rest.
II
Oh you, fierce hatred, my mistress!
I am alone among the enemies!
The moment I tell them my name
they’ll curse me no less than thrice.
But I’ll keep silent with my mouth full of blood,
I’ll clench my teeth to kill the word at birth.
I could breathe flame -
but then it’ll come the worst,
I know, now it is not the time.
But he is coming on edges of shining swords,
and you will feel again and again
the might of the poet’s prophetic word,
where every syllable is full of rage and pain.
1940
I say that maybe very soon
we all will die, oh, toastmaster,
the city where we were born,
will become ashes, toastmaster,
and the old raven will descend
up to the Golden Gate at noon.
I say when the disaster comes
You don’t argue with loved ones,
You rush to them, oh, toastmaster,
Like roaring of strings and brass
Of concert-halls rushes to us
Breaking all bounds, oh, toastmaster.
I greet you, oh, the time of reaping!
The rye is heavy, the air is bitter,
The rafts are waiting, but what’s the matter!
What toast shell we raise, toastmaster?
What shall we drink to, toastmaster?
For sunlit fields, for pouring Spring
That overfloods the land with roar,
for the dark sea and sunset lasting,
For dreams as sweet as child’s dreams are,
For the greens, for summer downpour,
That crosses groves and forests thirsty,
And for the grief that isn’t disaster,
And for the fact that we’ll argue,
I say: we later will argue,
who is to die, oh, toastmaster...
May, 1941
Did you hear it -
A spring storm came
throwing thunder and hail?
Poets dreamed of love and fame
and many glorious rhymes.
It seemed to them: rhymes marched like trained troops,
odes like flocks of birds,
At the publishing house a polite cashier
paid them a generous purse.
But they will not encounter Muse,
They will not catch her sight,
She is sweetie and vehement,
and her lovers are fierce.
I kissed her on the heady lips,
I held her in my arms.
Autumn came with its snowstorm,
Together with falling stars.
I used to tell her - come what may,
I’ll go with you through life,
I see the grief, I hear the grief,
I foresee it will be the grief;
But iron is in my scarlet veins,
fire is in my eyes,
And on my lips - mischievous and thin -
is irresistible laugh.
Oh, never, never I won’t forget,
Cerulean autumn days.
My eyes became cruel, and in my chest
anger weaved a nest.
I do not seek the lost Paradise,
I’ll willfully take my grief -
With all your pain, with tears and joys,
I accept you, Oh, Lady Life!
I swear on my pain, on my joys and tears -
I swear on my last breath;
I gonna laugh, pals, I gonna laugh,
And laugher my will be fierce!
The half-decayed photos once will tell
About our faces, dark and stern.
Vinyl recordings that survived bombs
Will speak in their voices dull and flat,
Not like the vibrant voices we used to have,
And hastily prepared reports
Will open rusty columns in newspapers.
They’ll find in huge dumps of memoirs
Scintillas of sufferings and thoughts.
From our lines they’ll take the heavy words,
Born in a calm between the mortal battles
And they will be surprised; how could
We think then of the grass and of the sky.
But their hearts will never understand
Neither our grief for those who was killed,
Nor silence of the cities lying dead,
Still smoking... Nor our hatred that
Is irresistible like a hunger, nor
Demonic pride that we are the only that
Are gifted both to suffer and to win.
1940
The universes were born and fall
into oblivion... But the eternal is
the habit of the smart ones to raise the glasses
and do not whine in times dark and cold.
By midnight let the friends to gather here...
Like our foregoers, we’ll begin the feast
without a chairman and resolutions,
but with a cupbearer, wine and jest!
Friends! Let us drink - for we do know why;
To praise the courage of ours to stand
In battles upcoming for the native land
Where we were born and where we will die.
December 31, 1940
We keep silence at rest stops. We warm up our overcoats
on cold bonfires. And then we plead: “Start a song!”
A hoarse young bass voice begins: “Oh, my hop here grows!” -
and the other, interrupting: “Oh, across the Danube Cossacks rode”.
We were taught not to believe neither in romance nor in the devil.
For blood you shall render blood. With blood you’ll wash it away.
My mother’s warm hands I’ve forgotten already.
Only occasionally I recall my mother’s warm hands,
pristine silence and the creaking of weather vanes.
This is what the song says: “Not to love would be better.”
For we forgot the last time we kissed.
We trample the frozen ground marching to swamps uninhabited.
What winds will be blowing then, what will spring greet us with?
There will be downpours, there will be explosions of rain,
The Finnish sun will rise over cold rivers and plains,
We will march through Suomi all over its swamps and slopes,
Forcing rivers by swimming and wading, time and again.
And then we'll be back. We will return from afar.
We will forget the batteries pouring fire.
Oh, a Cossack rode over the Bug and crossed Palenioki,
Oh, the journey it was, and the Rheine was the end of the way.
1940